Friday, December 3, 2010

"I thunk and I thunk..." and to no avail

So lately, I have been really thinking about life and what I want to do with it. At first, I wanted to be an author and write books into my old age. I was hopefully going to marry a guy that I loved and and that would love me. I would sew on the side for the fun of it but not make a career out of it.

However, while I still have the urge to write, I have been feeling lately the pull of other things such as fashion and baking.

I would love to open up a bakery where I sell scones, cookies, and cakes. Over Thanksgiving, I was able to bake my scones that I make all the time and even attempted gluten-free scones which turned out very well. The fact that I did well with the gluten-free scones made my mind go crazy about opening up a bakery and selling gluten-free things in it. I was super excited!

Recently (especially with the start of this blog), I have been perusing GalaDarling.com and NubbyTwiglet.com and the urge to get into fashion has been enormous. I recently worked on costumes for the play that my school did and while it was time consuming and stressful, I loved sewing and making things and getting people's reactions on the costumes. Plus, the Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising has been popping up at random times and I feel that it is calling my name. :(

Now, what was once paradise with the boyfriend is now starting to get a little rain. I want everything to work out but I have my mother's past relationships and my past relationships playing in my head which is not giving me any comfort. I want to get through it and we haven't actually had a fight yet and I know that it is about time but when it comes to guys, I have a very short leash after all that happened with my exes. I need to learn to communicate more but every time I communicate I feel like I am being mean or too critical. *sigh*

Any thoughts? Or advice?

From the place of contemplation and Peppermint mochas,

Brittany Sims

1 comment:

  1. praying for you bestfriend! As far as writing and such goes, I would say keep on it! Writing is always something to do in your spare time, and you're very good at it. I wouldn't give up the idea of becoming an author.
    The gluten free bakery/bakery in general would also be a good business for you. I think the key is finding a balance between everything that you love. If you did decide to open a bakery, that would definitely take up a lot of your time. If you wanted to have a family, I'm not sure if I would suggest becoming a full time business owner unless you can run the place out of your home.
    As far as fashion goes...I think all of these things are things you can do on the side. Having an interest in fashion, baking, and writing are all amazing things! I don't think you should have to choose.
    Aaaand then the boyfriend. If I were you, I would seriously start to think about your relationship. I think it's also time to ask yourself a couple questions:
    1. Are the things we disagree about major points that could cause contention and problems later on? (and potentially destroy the relationship)
    2. How much am I willing to compromise for him?
    I've had several relationships in the past that have gotten pretty serious, only to discover that we weren't right for each other..and that leads to a painful break-up. I think the best thing to do is to take it slowly and carefully consider every move you make with your boyfriend.
    and you know I'm always here. I love you so much!

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