So lately, I have been really thinking about life and what I want to do with it. At first, I wanted to be an author and write books into my old age. I was hopefully going to marry a guy that I loved and and that would love me. I would sew on the side for the fun of it but not make a career out of it.
However, while I still have the urge to write, I have been feeling lately the pull of other things such as fashion and baking.
I would love to open up a bakery where I sell scones, cookies, and cakes. Over Thanksgiving, I was able to bake my scones that I make all the time and even attempted gluten-free scones which turned out very well. The fact that I did well with the gluten-free scones made my mind go crazy about opening up a bakery and selling gluten-free things in it. I was super excited!
Recently (especially with the start of this blog), I have been perusing GalaDarling.com and NubbyTwiglet.com and the urge to get into fashion has been enormous. I recently worked on costumes for the play that my school did and while it was time consuming and stressful, I loved sewing and making things and getting people's reactions on the costumes. Plus, the Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising has been popping up at random times and I feel that it is calling my name. :(
Now, what was once paradise with the boyfriend is now starting to get a little rain. I want everything to work out but I have my mother's past relationships and my past relationships playing in my head which is not giving me any comfort. I want to get through it and we haven't actually had a fight yet and I know that it is about time but when it comes to guys, I have a very short leash after all that happened with my exes. I need to learn to communicate more but every time I communicate I feel like I am being mean or too critical. *sigh*
Any thoughts? Or advice?
From the place of contemplation and Peppermint mochas,